Sat 23 Jul 2005
I started out “Point Four” in the last post with all intentions of listing the positive attributes of my ex, but I failed utterly. I’m just too angry about everything still. He’s not all bad, there are good things about him and about being with him, or I wouldn’t have stuck around that long or even attempted to maintain contact with him after the breakup, but I’m just not there to be able to list them without plunging into bitterness. (My bitter comments he calls “verbal abuse.” *eyeroll*) <-- see what I mean? Maybe I'll try to give him some credit when some time has passed and I get out of man-hating mode.
No way, once you get out of “man-hating” mode, you should still realize that you had every right to be as bitter as you were. It is him that needs to give YOU more credit.
Don’t beat yourself up about not having anything positive to say about your ex. Look at me. It’s been over five years and I don’t have anything positive to say about my ex.