Thu 18 Aug 2005
The Coriolis effect is making me nauseated. Wow. I am seriously bummed. I’m trying to tell myself that this is just the result of my imagination going crazy on me, but what it feels like is too similar to how I felt in the relationship when I sensed that sht was going down involving her. I also know that instead of investing energy into convincing myself it’s not true, the energy should be going into getting me to the point of, “Whether it’s true or not, I don’t care.” I’m not there. Instead, I wanna curl up and cry.
Please, God, please please please let this be over soon. I can’t be hurt by the same thing over and over again. I can’t do it anymore.
Cry it out if you want. It helps sometimes.I do that too. After that, just ‘flush’ downn all the unhappiness and forget them.It’s NOT worth thinking. That’s rite, DON’T CARE/DON’T BOTHER. You’ll be fine soon. Take it one step at a time.
i have to agree- i cried yesterday in my office ( i closed the door and wasn’t sobbing or anything), as i was trying to write my motion that was gonna be due in a few hours.
it wasn’t exactly a catharsis but i did feel better afterwards. because the past week or so, i wanted to cry, but i had no tears.
i’ve been in this same situation, helpless – uncontrollable fears, thoughts, etc…it’s the worse – yet, I can’t walk away. 🙁
K – that’s not entirely your fault. Sometimes the other (selfish) party (selfishly) wants to keep you around cuz it’s easier for his (selfish) own needs.