Mon 22 Aug 2005
You ever felt really practiced in juggling, and then you get out there, start your act with all the confidence required, but as more and more balls are thrown in your loop and the time between moves gets shorter and shorter, you suddenly start panicking and you think, “I can’t do this! What was I thinking?!”
Well, that’s where I am. “What was I thinking?! I’m not ready for this at all! I’m not a juggler by nature!”
Except, let’s make this a bit worse. Let’s say the balls have feelings so that if you drop them, they hurt. In fact, let’s say the balls are tiny little puppies who are counting on you to keep them from hitting the ground and breaking something, and you’re so scared to hear the pained yelp of an injured puppy.
I am.
And now that I’ve written this and then given this post a title, yeah, a better metaphor would be the Chinese saying about how when you’re hungry, you think you can handle more food than you actually can so you over-order and can’t finish it, because it turns out your eyes are bigger than your mouth.
Where did this Chinese saying come from? How does it sound in Mandarin? I’ve never heard of it before. I’m so ashamed of myself now as it is my mother tongue.
I’ve never juggled. But I think practices make perfect applies in all matters. Good concentration is needed when juggling. I understand what you meant. Perhaps you’ve been thinking too much.
I prefer to start off with smaller amount to have a feel before I jump into something big, as a warm-up and as a precaution step too in case I hurt others and myself.
Heh. I always think too much. It comes from not wanting to lose control, not wanting to be caught off-guard or unprepared, not wanting to be responsible for anyone else’s misery.