Tue 18 Oct 2005
1.) I’d been working with the petitioner on a divorce case, trying to get his paperwork straight so that we can process it and get his divorce finalized. He called me today to tell me the missing documentation is on its way to me. That led to a conversation about his current fiance, his ex-wife, paths of life and God. He said, “What I wish for you, Cin, is for you to find someone who loves you like Jesus loves his church, who is willing to die for you, and who will find you too important to stray from to satisfy those selfish, selfish temptations. When you have that, all of life will be beautiful.” Weird, huh? We didn’t talk about my life; mostly about his. My “homework assignment” tonight that he gave me is to read the Book of John in the Bible. I may just do that.
2.) I spoke to a very trusted friend after my noontime workout and found out a few things, namely
– Mr. W’s ex is making stuff up
– her alleged “source” of information doesn’t exist, she’s coming up with stuff and pinning it on a nonexistent person so she looks like the innocent person who just “heard” all these random things; she named a category of people as the source of her information, and I just found out that no one in this category talks to her because none of them like her
– her claim that “everyone’s talking about it,” and how the rumors are all over, are all unfounded; no one’s talking about anything (I figured as much), and she’s the only one blowing this up
– she’s had a history of being extremely competitive with other women; the way she sees it, she should be the darling of all men and feels threatened by me
– my friend said she’s very jealous of me and that I should be flattered
Maybe now is the time to have a little fun and stop being so sensitive to other people who aren’t mature enough to deserve this consideration.
It is very wise of you to stop being sensitive to other people especially to stuff they said. We have no control over their mouth but we can choose to close our ears and ignore all these nonsense.
That’s not what I meant. I didn’t mean I was going to stop being affected by other people’s rumors. My being hurt is not an issue. I mean that I was going to stop being so considerate to petty people, i.e. his ex.
2)You’ve got what she wants, don’t play with her because you might open a door for her to jump in and ruin your relationship. You have always been good at taking the high road, even though you don’t necessarily want to, but my advice would be to keep all distance away from her. This isn’t a situation in which you want to keep your enemies closer. Don’t even give her the time of day, she isn’t worth it.
1) good conversation, the book of john was written as an evangelical piece, it is different from the other gospels because it is design to convice readers that Jesus was/is the christ and that by believing they would have life through him. The other gospels are more narrative. it is the most controversial and most dissected/argued of the gospels.
Ex, I have no intention of messing with her. First of all, that’s disrespectful to Mr. W, since she is HIS ex. Second of all, I don’t need to. I have more allies than she does (apparently), she hates me because of that, because she hears about me and even people around her think highly of me. Her own boss will soon be training with me at the gym. There is totally no need (and there’s pretty much never a need, anyway) to bloody my own hands to take care of what life and the balance of the universe has already taken care of. No one takes her seriously; they do the eyeroll and say “Consider the source.” If that drives her nuts, then that’s not my problem. The way I see it, the only problem is between her and her boyfriend who, if he had half a brain, should be concerned about why she’s so affected by her ex’s relationship.
Good. don’t even give her the time of day. she ain’t worth it. She has a boyfriend and she is spending time worrying about you and her ex? what a nut. Her boyfriend shouldn’t even be concerned he should just dump her. I wouldn’t even mention her in your blog anymore.
I never wanted to mention her to begin with. But it just really got on my nerves to the point where I had to get up in the middle of the night and outline that blog entry yesterday when I first mentioned her, before I was able to fall asleep.
I can’t believe I just admitted that.
That is so you. don’t let that little gnat disturb you like that, she ain’t worth it. What happened to that hard shell? you’ve already wasted too much energy and time on her, let’s put all that energy into something better served. if you feel like writing about her put it in your personal journals not a public blog. i wouldn’t even write about her or think about her. Let’s end this thread. She’s done, she’s not important and you’re better than all that b.s. just like you always have been.
J