We’re doing a criminal trial, and I’m half listening to testimony but keeping myself busy processing more divorces.

Is there a sick irony that the 2 self-addressed stamped envelopes a petitioner included in her divorce papers, in which envelopes I’m to send the final divorce documents back to the parties, have postage stamps showing a hand holding a big bouquet of flowers with the word “L O V E” written across the bottom in big block letters? I wonder if the petitioner (the person who filed for divorce) thought anything when she put the stamps on these envelopes. I’m probably just thinking too much, as usual. But if it were me, and let’s say the respondent, my soon-to-be-ex-husband, cheated on me, the only way a “love” stamp would’ve been on the envelopes would’ve been deliberately, as if to scoff, “Love, ha! If you knew how to love you wouldn’t be receiving this in the mail, ya jackass.”

Wilco told me in the wee hours this morning that I need to stop hanging out with people who are so down and disillusioned about marriage. Even if I started hanging out exclusively with happily married or optimistic-about-marriage people, this basketful of divorce cases alone would make me cringe. Sometimes I get lucky. I get a phone call from a divorcee inquiring about the status of their divorce case in my courtroom, and I get an earful of how he/she got screwed by the soon-to-be-ex.

Sad. It’s just sad.