Wed 14 Mar 2007
“My loyalty is with you,” she informed me yesterday. I didn’t respond to it, although she said she needed me to know that. But the reason it didn’t bowl me over is because I already knew that. She showed it all the time through her actions. Her simple statement to me didn’t even register until late last night. I was in front of my bathroom mirror plucking little unruly hairs, and my brain zapped my consciousness back to the days when loyalty was the thing most lacking from my friendships. I wouldn’t say my friends were catty, just young and selfish. There was a time when my closest female friend gave me her ear and her shoulder so that I could cry to her all the frustrations I had about a boy I liked, all the information I had about him, only to use what she learned through me to land him herself. There was a time when all the considerations and extra favors I did for my friends were not reciprocated when the opportunities arose for them to help me out or give me a heads-up. There was a time when I felt utterly alone, sad that I could trust no one. Pages and pages of teenage poetry testify to a disillusioned depression. This is why my friends are selected carefully today, and why I’d do so much for them. If I feel like someone is taking advantage of me, I’m sensitive to it. Sure I am. It’s all too familiar. But the people I surround myself by large are people I trust, and it has been this way for so long now that I don’t even think twice when one proclaims her loyalty to me. I hope I can live up to the kind of friendship that the wonderful people around me now give me.
Isn’t it great to have good friends you can trust and rely on like that? The only problem is finding people like that is tough. When you find them hold on to them!
sometimes you accidentally find each other… not intending to find a friend… like, serendipital friendships
😉
James – yup.
Jordan – I think a lot of them are like that. We just got lucky being at the right place at the right time.
Vanessa – =)
I hope to find friendship(s) like that someday. Funny I trust my blogger friends more than ones in real life I deal with daily.
flat: isn’t that funny? a shame too, but funny
well, your blogger friends do nothing but talk about themselves all day long, so you get a good look at who they are. people you meet in real life may only show you one side of them, the side they want you to see, so it’s a limited exposure. plus, you’re probably safer trusting your blogger friends cuz we’re pretty detached (personally and physically) and don’t have access to you to wreak havoc on your life.
well, actually, SOME of you do.
hahahaa
Are you threatening me?
never… you were saying that since blogger people are detached physically and personally, that they can’t wreak havoc on your lives.. I was merely stating that in my case, some of you actually could (to me) if you wanted to….
you know… ‘case you ever felt like it.
probably.
*gears turning*
*hamsters running on wheels*
*3 hamsters, in 3 different directions*
What were we talking about again?