Tue 21 Jun 2005
I also feel a little bad over writing this reply in an email this morning (the recipient of the email doesn’t have the address for this blog):
it’s not about love. I had to learn that the hard way. loving someone is NOT enough. my sitting there loving and loving didn’t do SHIT for me. stop disturbing my peace. my life is fucked up enough without your constant guilt trips and putting the responsibility of the destruction of the relationship on me. I just got in major trouble downstairs because I am failing in my ability to function, I don’t need to come up and read about “Gee, if you don’t love me enough to get over this, then I guess you just never loved me enough.” What a load of bullshit! How about thinking about how strong YOUR wrong actions are that it could destroy my love and the conviction I had for the relationship?! What about THAT?
Although I’m sympathetic to the pain you feel (as much as I can be, given who I am), I can only feel so bad about the demise of that relationship. The dude would never have been right for you. He had no potential. What he could have been isn’t what he is and will be.
Unfortunate that he caught your interest. Fortunate that you’re free of him sooner rather than later.
That sounds condescending. I meant it in a you’re-out-of-his-league sense.
Adam, don’t make me dig into my 2003 diary entries in which evidence exists that you encouraged me to go for this guy despite my feelings that he wasn’t my usual “type.” =) But thanks for your support of the demise of the relationship. 😛
I think facts and evidence are generally overrated.
haha – re: the last comment. it’s ironic that it comes from a law clerk(i think he is one of the law clerks in your court house).
Adam – Spoken like the true attorney you are. I’ll save this and send this to your judge when you’re practicing litigation.
Diana – yeah, he was in our courthouse. Now he’s downtown. I personally think he should have his Mensa membership revoked, too, for making a comment like that. 🙂 (He’s never gonna read my blog again.)
Cindy, you don’t know how lucky you are to figure this part of “love” out. Some people think love is an endless ocean, but it is more like a pail of water. The one that is loved will take out a spoonful or more every time an argument is not resolved, a lie is discovered or betrayal occurs. The more you are in love with someone the bigger the pail will be, but the more hurt inflicted, the faster the pail will empty. It sounds like this guy was taking cupfuls regularly. You are way better off with out this guy.
BTW, you can create a rule in GroupWise to send an auto reply to his messages. Something along these lines sounds appropriate.
Wimpy: I am in pain from what you have done; please do not attempt to contact me for my sake.
Nice: I told you do not e-mail me any more, it causes too much pain.
Harsh: Damn it, stop e-mailing me!
My Pick: “F off A hole!� (Censored for the children out there that my come across this.)
I’m really lucky to have all this support from everybody. It almost makes me feel sorry for him that so many people cyberly spit at him in support of me. But he gets support from his friends, too. Apparently they tell him “You’re a nice guy. If she can’t see that and appreciate that, then F that B. You can do better.” Ah, the wise words of the drunk.