Fri 12 Aug 2005
Good gawd, when have I become one of those people who felt guilty for not working out twice a day? It’s past 4am, and I’m mad at myself for falling asleep until now. I did abs and weights at lunch for 45 minutes, and now I’m considering hitting the gym to do cardio for an hour or so. Should I go back to bed, or do cardio? I know in 8 hours, I will be at the gym again. I figure I’m one of the two below:
1.) guilty for carb intake yesterday – a generous quantity of homemade ciabatta bread my court reporter made, consumed with actual butter; more Japanese rice crackers; 3/4 graham raisin bagel; lots of Trader Joe’s pumpkin flax seed cereal (omg, new favorite cereal) w/1% organic milk (can’t tell the difference)
2.) getting that weird OCD/anorexic overexercising thing where people think they’re fat but instead of starving or puking they try to burn the calories off by obsessively exercising, all tracing back to some underlying feeling of inadequacy and loss of control.
I hope it’s 1 and not 2. 2 could be bad for your health if you lose all self-control.
Don’t feel guilty, it was 4 am, and sleep was the best decision. You could always make up for it the next day if you wanted. Just make sure that you do make up for it, don’t procrastinate and then say “meh, forget it”. (That’s what I do, 🙁 what a hypocrite).
I’m definitely hitting the gym at lunchtime today. These days I also feel guilty for eating lunch instead of going to the gym. I’ll allow myself one lunch w/coworker(s) a week. They always want to eat at these fatty Mexican food or fatty fried food restaurants! I gotta find some dim sum or sushi partners.