I could’ve sworn I’d written something either on my blog or as a comment on someone else’s blog something about how it’s scary to be in a relationship because you give someone you have no control over your very fragile world and you just have to trust that the other person won’t be careless with your heart, and then I said something about how you must venture forth with your eyes wide open so that you could determine in as short a time as possible whether the person you’re dealing with is trustworthy, hopefully before you totally fall for him. However, I can’t find this comment ANYWHERE. Not on my blog, not on the comments of blog I frequent. How frustrating! Maybe I wrote that in an email of support to a friend.

But yeah, the scariest thing about a relationship to me is that half of the relationship is out of my hands and it’s purely reliant on how good a judge of character I am that decreases the odds that someone will rip my heart senseless. That’s why I tend to be euphoric alone, especially after I’ve come out of a bad relationship. It’s because for once (or so it feels), it’s finally the case that no one is able to have a negative effect on me. That no one has the power to make me sad. Some would say that even in a relationship, the other person shouldn’t have the power to destroy you, anyway, but come on. Let’s be realistic. If someone doesn’t have the power to crash you to hell, then either you’re a robot, or you weren’t that into them to begin with.