Fri 7 Jul 2006
Being in an exhausted, bad mood this evening, I called my childhood friend for a reason to ditch jujitsu again, for the 3rd month in a row. She said she was getting off work at 8:30-ish and wanted to meet up for Korean tofu after that so I can meet her new boyfriend. She said if I don’t feel like going to class, just relax and do whatever it takes to make me happy and she’ll call me after work. I must’ve been too relaxed because I fell asleep in front of the TV and even tho I assumed the house phone ringing would wake me up, it didn’t. I woke up on my own at just before 11:30p and was shocked I didn’t hear my phone ringing, and went upstairs to check my cell phone. I’d missed 3 calls from her. I called her back and she insisted on still meeting up, since the Korean tofu place is open 24 hours, and I finally agreed after lots of persuading from her even tho as I told her it’s late and I need to work the next morning. She said she was gonna finish making out with her new boyfriend and she’ll call me when they leave, saying they wouldn’t be too long. It’s been an HOUR. I’ve changed, put my face back on and I’m sitting here, and I’m thinking I’m gonna call her back and tell her I’m going to bed. She probably fell asleep, considering she was complaining about being drunk while on the phone earlier.
We must be on the same wave length. I was exhausted and in a bad mood. I felt so bad I snapped at Chance like 3 times (possible more) and the worst part of it all I only noticed one of them. When I apologize for the one he asked me if I was mad at him because I was being that way all day! Of course not, I am just in a funk. But YIKES I can be a lil poo poo head and not realize it 🙁
So did you end up going out after all? Rest up tonight because tomorrow is PARTY TIME!!!
The saving grace for you is that you can be hurt or offended and not realize it, either. So for those things that people get away with, it comes out even with your unconscious snaps.
I didn’t end up going out; she never called. At about 1:45 a.m. I showered and went to bed and slept fairly well.
PAR-TAY!!
Oh, Josh called. Well, actually, he IMed. Laurel had other plans, and he has a morning appointment or something, but he’s going to try to make it by himself in the afternoon. I told him with the cost of tickets these days, don’t worry about it if he could only come for half a day. He said he’s still gonna come because he doesn’t see me otherwise. I thanked him for the ditching-jujitsu-guilt angle, and he said it’s more of a caring-about-me angle, but he’ll take the guilt angle. How nice, huh? I think we should go to class soon, man.