Wed 12 Mar 2008
I heard from my ghost today in a brief, 2-lined email.
Been a really long time… Just wanted to see how you were doing Cindy
Guess he never googled me or he would’ve found this blog.
Wed 12 Mar 2008
I heard from my ghost today in a brief, 2-lined email.
Been a really long time… Just wanted to see how you were doing Cindy
Guess he never googled me or he would’ve found this blog.
You dreamed about him again? odd.
Why do guys always do that? It’s so infuriating.
*abated breath* … and then what?!
*now composed* NO! wut i meant to advise is that u should say, “i’m getting married u poopy head! be gone.”
Flat Coke – I wish. Well, not really.
x-gf – I think it’s written in their humanity contract that they have to screw with at least one person and then haunt them afterwards. I dunno. Yeah, I remember yours, ick.
a – If the contact continues he definitely will know about Mr. W and the coming nuptials. But what I think I wasn’t clear on before is that he and I never dated, we were just insanely close. I don’t know WHAT we were. Even looking back on my old diary entries and his old letters to me, I don’t know what I was to him. I think that’s why it feels like there’s unfinished business, it’s cuz to some extent I feel used and the friendship/benefits were so one-sided. I’d like to ask him what I was to him, clear up some things for me, but I don’t know if I dare pull at that old thread. In his adulthood I think he has looked back at our situation and felt shitty about it, which is why every so often, anytime he drops me a line it’s full of apologies and acknowledgments that I was always “so good” or “too good” to him.
in my defensiveness for u as a friend, i think he sounds like a loser who never had the balls to make his mind (the topic of which is such a big pet peeve of mine that i could probably write a book about it). i don’t even feel like he should have the privilege of knowing anything about ur life, let alone having the nerve to still talk to u.
That’s a new perspective to me, but it does make sense.
he knows he screwed up…. and he’ll probably continue to reach out, even if it is every 3 or 4 years
this kinda feels final, tho. I don’t know why.