Tue 3 Jan 2012
i’m blogging with my right hand only because a brand new little person is sleeping in my left, against my left shoulder after my failed attempt in burping her. *rubbing my left temple on the back of her fuzzy li’l head*
had my 6-wk postnatal apptmt with my ob earlier. hubby took an extra day off today to watch allie, so i made him an overdue optometry apptmt today, where he is now. after my 30 lb preg weight gain (i think i maxed out at 156 lbs), i’m now close to back at my pre-preg weight (128 lbs now). i tried wearing my wedding/engagement rings yesterday and they fit. pelvic exam shows i’ve healed from labor. the stitches just have to dissolve on their own, my skin healed over them well.
as for mentally, my ob said i’m “normal for [my] personality.” he doesn’t think i have an actual psyche disorder, & wanting to hyperclean or hypercontrol housework because i can’t control the baby is common. because i’m meticulous, in-control, organized, systematic by nature, & because i’m an older new parent accustomed to doing things my way for a long time, & i’m educated & have expectations.
baby up & crying now. gotta go!
I’m really impressed with your one-hand typing skill; I didn’t spot any typo errors.
For many months, my boy would cry whenever I put him down even if he’s asleep on my hands. So I had to just carry him all the time and use one hand to type or do whatever whilst sitting down. In my emails and online chats with friends, I had to include a line “I’m sorry for all the typos and grammars because I am replying you using one hand and also a crying baby that doesn’t allow me to proof-read.”
I finally gained some freedom once he started rolling over. I felt so miserable not able to do much. I kept telling myself that I should cherish this time when he still needs me because I’m pretty sure once he’s grown up he’ll have his own life. And most likely he doesn’t even want to pick up my phone calls. “Oh my Momzilla is calling!” would be his reaction. 😛
good point, I should enjoy the moment as people keep telling me. but same thing: the immobility makes me feel helpless and awful.